I'm so tired of always being pushed around. Double standards are literally what is killing all of my relationships. Its perfectly fine for so and so to do this but GOD FORBID if Haley does that. I seriously have to walk on eggshells in almost every aspect of my life.
Once someone learns how easy it is to break me down they use it in every way to their advantage. I can't count the times I put my everything into something, into someone, just to be pushed aside or to be taken advantage of. The crazy thing is, I continue to let people treat me like this repeatedly even after they have hurt me so many times.
I do nothing but love all of the people in my life. I give them absolutely every part of my heart, my soul, my everything and yet I still get repeatedly stomped on. As much as I want them to be happy don't I deserve happiness as well?
It hurts when someone asks something of me and I ask something in return and get pushed aside. I'm tired of crying and groveling when someone isn't happy with something I do.
When is it my turn to not really care what people think? When is it my turn to stomp all over someone's feelings without any remorse? When is it my time to stand up for myself?
Never. And would you like to know why? Because I will always be that person standing in the corner watching other people have fun while i'm doing all of the work. I will always be that person subjected to staying in the bedroom doing some boring task for someone while the rest of the party goes on.
I live to help people and in return I ask for nothing.. maybe I should start.
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